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Saturday, July 02, 2005
after a month of not blogging...
im still alive.
KJ, ate ida and myself are moving in to our apartment later, in lerma, mandaluyong. moks, is supposed to be moving in today as well but he's still in the hospital. i pray he gets well soon. and stef din. get well soon you people!!! it's weird having you both sick at the same time. we missed you at fullcup's opening. get well soon, i tell you! and stef, as soon as we all get settled, please visit the apt.
yeah, i propose we call it the apt.
i hope to get another job. can't wait to work as a barista sa starbucks. yup, barista. starbucks. where people's blood is colored mocha. free cups of coffee for every shift.
He said be still. i hope im being obedient.
thank You for drowning me tonight. You're like sugar to my blood, i just can't get enough.
kahit na magkasakit.
i'm leaving george, my hamster, in carmona. he's better there - presko, mas malamig. and he'll be around my parents almost always. i hope they take good care of him.
will go to sleep now.
aaaahhhh, switchfoot.
Posted at 02:12 am by astridnoelle
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
im coming home
we'll board superferry12 at 4 this afternoon
this Viz-Min tour had been crazy, yet fun
i've made friends with kontra gapi pipol of UP
im grateful to them, for sharing with me their talents
and the rich culture we filipinos have, that i undeniably appreciate more now
wait til you see me back there
the beauty of the ocean
how the sun lightens it up on an early morning
how the full moon makes its waters glisten
and make you feel like you're in the movie titanic
while you're on top deck of the ship, cold air making you fold
i wish you were there with me
the clear waters of duka bay in misamis
the coral reefs and fishes ive seen through a glass bottom boat
ive seen nemo, he says hi
sometimes i wish i belong to the sea
and swim
the smell of UP Cebu's main building
Yuping-yupi
the view on top of cagayan de oro city
overlooking some bay, and camiguin island
i bathe in a falls, i had no spare clothes
had to do it for the experience
marami pa
all these i wish i have shared with you
but we'll go there
bohol right?
il wait til we go places
for now, il keep those images in mind
i didnt bring a camera
who says i have one?
Posted at 11:21 am by astridnoelle
Sunday, May 01, 2005
now im ready to do some talking.
maybe you'll hear me out. maybe you won't. i don't really care. all i want is to let this out. let it exist so as to say to myself, there, maybe i made a point. and i hope to take my next steps from here.
i've dreams, goals of my own - finish thesis, find a job, earn enough to support my self and my family, take up MA on interior design, do professional prod design work, have a furniture showroom slash cafe slash venue for ministry, go to australia, visit hillsong church, then maybe to new zealand, or italy, then to africa, do missions or charity work there, then social work here in the philippines - whichever comes first. but it'd be great to accomplish all. and did i mention i plan to have a family of my own?
then suddenly God asks me...
do you still love me? am i still your first love?
Posted at 07:49 pm by astridnoelle
Thursday, April 14, 2005
yes im still here
il be quick...
is rob thomas going solo... and POP?!
everything is nostalgic right now
il buy a car soon
il learn how to drive
and maybe il go to italy
my mind's not here
Posted at 03:30 pm by astridnoelle
Sunday, March 20, 2005
you're getting a year older! is that good or bad?
i stumbled upon this in my "starred mails" folder.
this is one of those you sent us, back when you call yourself the rambler.
i can't quite remember what this rambling of yours pertained to,
but i can surely say that He has been and continues to be faithful in your life.
here's to more blessed years...
i love you,
kath'rine
From: "Francis John Hofilena" < johnnybilog@hotmail.com>
To: upchristmass@yahoogroups.com
Subject: [upchristmass] stark rambling scared
Date: Thu, 21 Aug 2003 14:33:04 +0800
direction
"And I want to get free,
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be all you need,
[but] Somehow here is gone..."
- goo goo dolls
"Nothing's so cold as closing the heart when all we need
Is to free the soul
But we wouldn't be that brave I know"
- toad the wet sprocket
"where do we go from here? tell me where do we go..."
- england dan and john ford coley
i chickened out. i just want you to know that. everybody does, once
in a while, so don't hold it against me. now I get to face my demons.
good for you.
o, the quintessential question, as my fave duo from the ‘70s sang it…
“where do we go from here?”
that, translated to modern day language would be “what now?” [tag. "ano na?"]
there’s that feeling when you know something’s supposed to come next and
then it doesn’t happen. So what next? See, therein lies the problem, in the
“next” part. How do you get to the “next” part when the “now” doesn’t take
place? What’s your basis for the next move? What’s the foundation for the next decision?
Sometime in the past few days, I just wanted to shout back the question to God.
And not just that, I wanted an answer and fast. Looks like I’m not
getting that. We’ll just have to wait it out like everybody else.
The jump from sure-fire faith to uncertainty wasn’t the one I’ve been
planning for my life in the next few days. But that’s where I am right now.
Whoever said God adhered to what MY plans were? Whoever said He had to? He
can do as He pleases. And right now, out of the depths of uncertainty, He
wants me to rise up with a little bit more faith than when I began the
process. He sure has a funny way of doing it, though.
And He does it to the things that really, REALLY matter to you. Not just the
teeny weeny things in your life. He does it to the things that you’re scared to lose.
And yes, right now, I am scared.
the rambler
Posted at 06:53 pm by astridnoelle
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
this is just what i have to say (and quote) for now
i still need enough time for reality to sink in so no details yet
suffice it to say that God is stretching my faith
just when i thought that the waiting is finally over,
He takes me to new heights and teaches me things i have yet to understand
about faith and His sovereignty
akala ko Lord pasado na ko, hindi pa pala
and i mean about having faith in You
there's no better comfort than to hear from You alone...
By faith Abraham, even though he was past age–and Sarah herself was barren–was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise (Heb. 11:11)
The land unfit enough for planting
Barren enough to conceive
Poor enough to gain the treasure
Enough a cynic to believe
Enough a cynic to believe
-jarsofclay
But Lord i know You will satisfy my wait
And Lord i know Your time is never late
-emanwel
Posted at 12:35 pm by astridnoelle
Thursday, February 24, 2005
now i can scream and be excited for jars on the 2nd of march
because i already finished filming my thesis last night =)
it's a blessing, really
and i thank God for it
-for the people who helped me out financially (thank you for your generosity)
-for friends who woke up early, stayed up til 12 midnight and labored with me...
my PM - charis, thank you for helping me sort things out and for believing in my project
AD - ate ida, thank you for simply being there, and for reminding me that we don't want a typical melodramatic story to come out of my film
DOP - annest, direk (hehe) salamat sa magaling na pag-iilaw at sa mga suhestyon mo na sadyang kinailangan ko
PD - eya, yam, armi, salamat di nyo ko pinag-alala at pinabayaan. the best kayo
SOUND - french, salamat nandun ka kahit na may sakit ka. touch ako
SCRIPT CON - rory, galing mo mag-slate at mag-cam log ha, pati magPD PA. pramis. salamat
FOOD PA - iona! salamat, dahil sa yo nabusog kami
kuya cocoy & ate amy, big thanks to you, hinayaan nyong istorbohin namin kayo. thank you for your generosity
big thanks to my crew. malamang di sila nagbabasa ng blog pero they're out there. it would be a crime not to mention them - si kuya mike, mang louie, mang boy at kuya miki. kung tutuusin mas napagod pa si mang boy at kuya miki kaysa sa akin. maybe someday il let them know how much i appreciate their labor. di birong pagpawisan at mapagod ng maghapon para kumita lang ng konti.
tara jars na!
Posted at 02:21 pm by astridnoelle
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
but i have a PC for sale. hehe.
2nd hand, bought 2nd quarter of last year, slightly used.
Specs:
1.8Ghz Duron
256mb RAM
64mb Video
40GB hard disk
I'm selling it for 15thou - 15" monitor, keyboard and mouse included.
Plus accessories - printer, speakers & computer table, would be 18thou.
Of course price is negotiable. =)
If you or someone you know is interested, I can send you the details.
Just please leave your email add sa comment box below.
I assure you this would be a good buy. PC still looks white and clean. hehe
Please help me look for a buyer as this would help me with my thesis.
Or if you have the money, please do think about it.
Hehe. thanks!
Posted at 11:08 am by astridnoelle
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
| You Are 22 Years Old |
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
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1983
If you scored...
1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!
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1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!
1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.
1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good! |
Posted at 01:41 pm by astridnoelle
Thursday, February 03, 2005
i still feel your hurt. and i do feel it right now.
i was reminded of something i read during my quiet time when you asked me to listen to your song... that sometimes we have to be in the shadows because only then are we able to bloom, like a flower when it hides in the stillness of the night. but we don't have to fret because the shadows are actually those of our Father's hands, guiding us where we should be until we see His face again. He's the God who sends peace, the same God who sends us storms.
i told you i like new living translation's version of the story of Jesus when He calmed the storm.
it reads...
As evening came, Jesus said to his disciples, "Let's cross to the other side of the lake." He was already in the boat, so they started out, leaving the crowds behind (although other boats followed). But soon a fierce storm arose. High waves began to break into the boat until it was nearly full of water. Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Frantically they woke him up, shouting, "Teacher, don't you even care that we are going to drown?" When he woke up, he rebuked the wind and said to the water, "Quiet down!" Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm. And he asked them, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still not have faith in me?"
those words hit me hard. oo nga naman di ba? after all He has done, do we still not trust Him? yeah, easy for those who are safe on the shore. but hey, He did it. He calmed what they feared of. we both know He is able to do the same in our lives. so come on, let's cross to the other side with Him.
ailene sent me a verse through text, and im still keeping it in my inbox. i draw strength from its truth every now and then. it's found in isaiah 26:12. im not sure about the version of the one she sent me but, again, NLT seems to appeal to me more...
LORD, you will grant us peace,
for all we have accomplished is really from you
but come to think of it, the one ailene sent me has a distinct impact...
O Lord, you establish peace for us; for indeed, all that we have done, you have done for us.
and like i said, if ever you sing that song in church, i will be there to wipe off your tears.
im always here for you.
love you dearly,
kath'rine
Posted at 03:02 pm by astridnoelle
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